Saturday, May 30, 2009
however, no matter how hard this distance is going to be, one thing remain. his face is getting blur n blur each day, but not our heart :) xxx
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
get over it girl, its one ur passion, keep going, dun let urself lose. esp when it comes to d heart business :p
Monday, May 25, 2009
d thing is no matter how hard i try,
i'll never b good enough for u
go away n bring ur mouth with u,
tons of ur words dat keeping me down is deff d LAST THING i need
keep talking, cz i aint listening
n apparently, u r talking with my back
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
wht am i worried bout? ALOT. shoot, tears again. perfectionism starts killing me. i got 2 presentations tmrw n i really craving for a 7 DAMMIT. i really want to b perfect. recomendations presentation, global business presentation, not to mention d reflective essay n qcd report dats going to b handed back tmrw. man, wht if its below my expectation?
wht else? o, obviously, my weight problem. seriously. someone is like KEEPING ME DOWN all d time, even when my heart screams ENOUGH. i wish i cud put my finger down on my throat n throw everything up. enough, i said. can u just please take me for who i am? o one thing. u said dat ur here for me. but did i see u just ran away with bunch of ur friends when u completely kno dat i just cant stop for being stressful? there, i said it.
yes. i completely mad. dun ask me why. cause i bet u kno it so well. God i desperately need ur help. i meant it. i cant do these things alone. n pls, i wish i cud stop bothering things dat is not worth it to b bothered.
why does everything seems harder when im learning how to b thankful all d time?
Monday, May 18, 2009
1. found my pineaple juice leaked in my bag, i repeat, in my bag, leaving all my documents wet n smells like pineaple. yuck. funny, i desperately need sun in this almost-winter phase
2. my 5 dollars note stucked in vending machine. shit.
3. running out of credit, when im nearly running out of balance in my bank acount
4. i lost my co-op bookshop namecard
5. i broke my shoes. seriously. really broke my shoes
6. n i lost my usb, which means dat i need to type everything all over again as my works r ALL there.
but i still can b thankful to God, for giving me a helping hands when i dunno where to go :) Liana, my day-light saviour, she's been really helpful today. thx darl :)
nothing cant stop me for being grateful
Sunday, May 17, 2009
sorry for the eggs n the other yucky things wen
well its proved dat we do love u :)
Friday, May 15, 2009
yea, true dat. i hav friends, but when im back in my room, seems like everything so quite, n here i am, nothing here but the loneliness. man, actually i hate being home alone on weekend, as my friends across the continent r having their fun without even remember to touch the internet tools. well, im not complaining, my friend :). dats why i like to seek for some kinda sweet escape, when i can b home sooo late. but tonite, i dun feel like going out. dunno why. i was just hoping dat i can enjoy some 'me-time'. but hell yea, dat was a bad decision of mine tho.
its not homesick. more likely called as friendsick. lol. man, im running out of words. i kno so well why im acting this way. yea true, nothing more pathetic than looking back. im always asking d same question like, wht if i were there, wht if i were with them. see? shoot, i really hav to start doing my life here again just like before. girl, ur life is here, earning it now. burn ur bridge. u cant keep living in ur memory. ur life is here.
shit. now i really regret my decission for not going out with blance n others tonite.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Tony Carr - my Global Business lecturer
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
sorry dat ive been away for so long, n sorry for easily-to-get-sleep-in-front-of-laptop-with-msn-still-on without letting u kno dat im asleep, n furthermore leaving u there with all of ur stupefaction. this sort of lack-of-sleep problem is getting out of control as i didnt hav much sleep for 2 weeks in a row due to those assignments that ripped my life away. well, is dat my fault? there, i said it.
apparently dats also one of the reasons why i was away from this blogging thingy.
apart from that tho, my management essay is otw to its perfection, at least i hope so. man, i put so much expectation on it dat i worked my ass off for this. n i cant imagine how massive God's helping hands dat He putted on me, not to mention the responsibility dat i need to fight for. yea, its called a 7, the highest academic index.
how can i be thankful for this almost-perfect life
(in particular theres no such a 100% perfect life *wink). God always be there for me even ive forgotten Him lately. big thanks and hug, God. :)
maybe i can do it by trying to keep my feets on the ground n my head in the earth :p
but i do deserve a 7 eh? lol
Monday, May 11, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
adhis : gw takut ni mei
meina : tkt apaan?
adhis : tkut klo one day gw pulang k indo, gw keenakan n jd berat bgt pas hrs balik k brissie
gw ga bs bayangin gmn skitnya. i just cant help wondering how it hurts, knowing dat i
hav to leave again, alone, sitting in the plane, watching u all waving at my plane
meina : loh knp hrs sedih? hrsnya lo sneng dunk bs ngrasain tinggal di 2 negara skaligus
we actually have so much things to be thankful for
we just dun realise it
parents. food. friends. clothes. education. or even d fact dat u can still awake in d morning, feel d sun n find out dat u r still healthy n alive?
if not ..
just imagine dat those things sudenly are taken away from us
please, cherish wht uve got. ur not d most plight people in d world. trust me. u only wish u did.
Monday, May 4, 2009
*amazingly u can feel it, sorry*
Sunday, May 3, 2009
go ol now, need somebody to talk to
when u hav things to choose. which one wud b ur priority, heart or logic?
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
simply a good brother
eventho smtimes he's soooo annoying :)
but when u r far away, u just realise how u miss him badly