innocent

i hate when people shout at me for things i didnt do.

innocent

i hate when people shout at me for things i didnt do.

clown

just so you know, the clown needs a break. for clown is still human after all.

clown

just so you know, the clown needs a break. for clown is still human after all.

dear God

i dont know why but my heart keeps aching

dear God

i dont know why but my heart keeps aching

in a desperate need of simple love

i miss the time when love was easy. when love was simply about dating on the weekend, having lunch together, giving a ride home, and a late night call. unlike now. as if you were forced into a war trying to win the unconditional, but u always fail. Love like this is like two sides of coins. your glass is full with feelings like I love you but i dont trust you, i hate you but i miss you, i cant live my life with people like you, but i will just be a useless toy trying to live without you. It is just like living in a circle. you cant stop going through the same things over and over again. i am sick of this. Why cant we just be normal?

in a desperate need of simple love

i miss the time when love was easy. when love was simply about dating on the weekend, having lunch together, giving a ride home, and a late night call. unlike now. as if you were forced into a war trying to win the unconditional, but u always fail. Love like this is like two sides of coins. your glass is full with feelings like I love you but i dont trust you, i hate you but i miss you, i cant live my life with people like you, but i will just be a useless toy trying to live without you. It is just like living in a circle. you cant stop going through the same things over and over again. i am sick of this. Why cant we just be normal?

it is (not) okay

it was okay when u punch me right on my pride, step on my thought, throw away the best part of me, and even rip everything in front of my nose. until u take the only thing i have, and turn it into puppet. u have jumped into the line, and it is just beyond my limit.

no, it is not okay now.

it is (not) okay

it was okay when u punch me right on my pride, step on my thought, throw away the best part of me, and even rip everything in front of my nose. until u take the only thing i have, and turn it into puppet. u have jumped into the line, and it is just beyond my limit.

no, it is not okay now.

an insecure mess

i feel like a walking bomb which is ready to explode. i do not tolerate things. i am being negative. the pain that i have hidden inside for so long has turned into a massive bomb. apparently i have poisoned my heart with too much hatred.

an insecure mess

i feel like a walking bomb which is ready to explode. i do not tolerate things. i am being negative. the pain that i have hidden inside for so long has turned into a massive bomb. apparently i have poisoned my heart with too much hatred.

legal age

the best thing of having birthday is the world feels like revolving around you

especially when it is your 21st

legal age

the best thing of having birthday is the world feels like revolving around you

especially when it is your 21st

ancient

"treat people like the way you want to be treated"

But apparently what happen in the real world is people do not treat you like the way you treated them.

so please cut it out, that quote is ancient.

ancient

"treat people like the way you want to be treated"

But apparently what happen in the real world is people do not treat you like the way you treated them.

so please cut it out, that quote is ancient.

trust

having a long distance relationship is just like driving your car blindfolded. you barely know what is in front of you and you hardly know which direction you are heading to. It is like driving a relationship with eyes closed. you blind yourself for everything that happen surrounds you, cus you cant see further anyway. It is like living in a role play. you have to act like you dont mind, when you actually mind. trust is all what you got. it is not the distance that matters, it is the trust. and when it is broken, you cant have anything but a broken heart and a broken relationship.

and you finally have my heart broken. thank you.

trust

having a long distance relationship is just like driving your car blindfolded. you barely know what is in front of you and you hardly know which direction you are heading to. It is like driving a relationship with eyes closed. you blind yourself for everything that happen surrounds you, cus you cant see further anyway. It is like living in a role play. you have to act like you dont mind, when you actually mind. trust is all what you got. it is not the distance that matters, it is the trust. and when it is broken, you cant have anything but a broken heart and a broken relationship.

and you finally have my heart broken. thank you.

SOS

where are you when i need you? yes. you and You. apparently im a single fighter indeed.

SOS

where are you when i need you? yes. you and You. apparently im a single fighter indeed.

a goodbye

it is sad to see your best friend goes into different direction and knowing that you cant follow them. and it completely breaks your heart when you realise that your best friend, is no longer your best. it is funny when we used to share things and spend hours talking about almost everything, but now, we are just completely strangers. dont you know that it hurts to see that nothing left from you but a cold back? then walk, walk away. memories are fading and it is no longer my lost. Iam trying to adjust and move on. cause life goes on.

thank you for everything,
we remain good friends.

a goodbye

it is sad to see your best friend goes into different direction and knowing that you cant follow them. and it completely breaks your heart when you realise that your best friend, is no longer your best. it is funny when we used to share things and spend hours talking about almost everything, but now, we are just completely strangers. dont you know that it hurts to see that nothing left from you but a cold back? then walk, walk away. memories are fading and it is no longer my lost. Iam trying to adjust and move on. cause life goes on.

thank you for everything,
we remain good friends.

i come to You

Dear God
How i miss talking to You God. I have been acting so arrogant thinking that i do not need talking to You. I have been acting unfaithfully, thinking that talking to You will not solve any problem, will not make things better. Forgive me God.

Dear God
I cannot find any words to explain how fragile i am. The storm inside my head. I barely can figure it out. Things happen. and i am too blind to see.

Dear God
Why do you have to make everything immortal. Something good never lasts forever. So why do we have to live if everything will meet its end?

Dear God
Words fail me. Amen.

"di saat iman mu goyah, disitulah iman mu dikuatkan dhis"
a friend that im pretty sure dont want his name to be mentioned here.

i come to You

Dear God
How i miss talking to You God. I have been acting so arrogant thinking that i do not need talking to You. I have been acting unfaithfully, thinking that talking to You will not solve any problem, will not make things better. Forgive me God.

Dear God
I cannot find any words to explain how fragile i am. The storm inside my head. I barely can figure it out. Things happen. and i am too blind to see.

Dear God
Why do you have to make everything immortal. Something good never lasts forever. So why do we have to live if everything will meet its end?

Dear God
Words fail me. Amen.

"di saat iman mu goyah, disitulah iman mu dikuatkan dhis"
a friend that im pretty sure dont want his name to be mentioned here.

a glimpse of sorry

for those who often say that time heels, must have not known the power of sorry.

thus, i just want to say. i forgive u. even it takes more than 2 years for you to come to me and say sorry. oh well its better than nothing.

a glimpse of sorry

for those who often say that time heels, must have not known the power of sorry.

thus, i just want to say. i forgive u. even it takes more than 2 years for you to come to me and say sorry. oh well its better than nothing.

stars

guess what?
i was featured on page 10 of City Magazine and City News

dad, this one is for you
to make you proud :)

love,
ur darling daughter

stars

guess what?
i was featured on page 10 of City Magazine and City News

dad, this one is for you
to make you proud :)

love,
ur darling daughter

the world bites

i know that God is trying to put me into something, testing me on something. to learn, to grow, to be fruitful, by putting me in the bottom of everything.
for the very first time, i am not able to control things.
for the very first time, i am enable to get what i want.
for the very first time, people take me for granted.
my pride hurt, and i fall.
the world moves on, and it doesnt bring me along with it.
simply because it runs, and i remain walking.

im about to fall from grace, and you are not there to lift me up
oh i forgot. ur never there

the world bites

i know that God is trying to put me into something, testing me on something. to learn, to grow, to be fruitful, by putting me in the bottom of everything.
for the very first time, i am not able to control things.
for the very first time, i am enable to get what i want.
for the very first time, people take me for granted.
my pride hurt, and i fall.
the world moves on, and it doesnt bring me along with it.
simply because it runs, and i remain walking.

im about to fall from grace, and you are not there to lift me up
oh i forgot. ur never there