this time im really mad. for real. MAD. ANGRY. or even FURIOUS. just dun mess up with me, or even simply just dun talk with me when u only can make more STRESSFUL. i meant it. why dun u just b there with me when my world seems soo dark? isnt dat so simple? be there with me. ive been pushing away my ego like everytime only to bring u up. can u just do it for me now? i need u.
wht am i worried bout? ALOT. shoot, tears again. perfectionism starts killing me. i got 2 presentations tmrw n i really craving for a 7 DAMMIT. i really want to b perfect. recomendations presentation, global business presentation, not to mention d reflective essay n qcd report dats going to b handed back tmrw. man, wht if its below my expectation?
wht else? o, obviously, my weight problem. seriously. someone is like KEEPING ME DOWN all d time, even when my heart screams ENOUGH. i wish i cud put my finger down on my throat n throw everything up. enough, i said. can u just please take me for who i am? o one thing. u said dat ur here for me. but did i see u just ran away with bunch of ur friends when u completely kno dat i just cant stop for being stressful? there, i said it.
wht am i worried bout? ALOT. shoot, tears again. perfectionism starts killing me. i got 2 presentations tmrw n i really craving for a 7 DAMMIT. i really want to b perfect. recomendations presentation, global business presentation, not to mention d reflective essay n qcd report dats going to b handed back tmrw. man, wht if its below my expectation?
wht else? o, obviously, my weight problem. seriously. someone is like KEEPING ME DOWN all d time, even when my heart screams ENOUGH. i wish i cud put my finger down on my throat n throw everything up. enough, i said. can u just please take me for who i am? o one thing. u said dat ur here for me. but did i see u just ran away with bunch of ur friends when u completely kno dat i just cant stop for being stressful? there, i said it.
so pls dun say dat u r here for me when in fact u were not
yes. i completely mad. dun ask me why. cause i bet u kno it so well. God i desperately need ur help. i meant it. i cant do these things alone. n pls, i wish i cud stop bothering things dat is not worth it to b bothered.
why does everything seems harder when im learning how to b thankful all d time?
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