i miss u so much that it hurts

"cause u know i'd walk a thousand miles if i could just see u tonight"
Vanessa Carlton - Thousand Miles

sometimes i just cant bear the fact that we r miles away separated. i just realise that all these days, i have never done with it, i am just err.. running away. help me, comfort me, my feet is just too tired to run, my heart is just too tired to bleed, and my body is just too tired to pretend. i have failed to smile whenever i wake up cause i realise that it is just another same days without looking u in the eye. i am putting my mask down and u can see that i have never been strong, i was just pretending that i am. two years ahead. two years. two years ahead to live as a pretender. nevermind, life is always fake anyway. The fact is when u cry, when u even grout, the world will still revolve and too bad, it does not revolve on u. grass will still be green, violets will still be blue, life will keep on going, and he will still be a continent away. i can only force my self to believe that everything will be beautiful in His time. it is true.

"Kesabaran berbuah manis" - Ciko

i miss u so much that it hurts

"cause u know i'd walk a thousand miles if i could just see u tonight"
Vanessa Carlton - Thousand Miles

sometimes i just cant bear the fact that we r miles away separated. i just realise that all these days, i have never done with it, i am just err.. running away. help me, comfort me, my feet is just too tired to run, my heart is just too tired to bleed, and my body is just too tired to pretend. i have failed to smile whenever i wake up cause i realise that it is just another same days without looking u in the eye. i am putting my mask down and u can see that i have never been strong, i was just pretending that i am. two years ahead. two years. two years ahead to live as a pretender. nevermind, life is always fake anyway. The fact is when u cry, when u even grout, the world will still revolve and too bad, it does not revolve on u. grass will still be green, violets will still be blue, life will keep on going, and he will still be a continent away. i can only force my self to believe that everything will be beautiful in His time. it is true.

"Kesabaran berbuah manis" - Ciko

happy Australian Day guys :)

went to mount Nebo for the Australian Days, and did the 2 km hiking. not quite a hiking though, it was more like an evening walk, and photograph session. lol. i dont know. soo damn exhausted , eventhough mine is not really tough actually. 2 km walk was just nothing compared to the guys who have successfully done the 5skm walk. how was the 'waterfall' my dear fellas? LOL

happy Australian Day guys :)

went to mount Nebo for the Australian Days, and did the 2 km hiking. not quite a hiking though, it was more like an evening walk, and photograph session. lol. i dont know. soo damn exhausted , eventhough mine is not really tough actually. 2 km walk was just nothing compared to the guys who have successfully done the 5skm walk. how was the 'waterfall' my dear fellas? LOL

am i too small? or did i do something wrong?

maybe the thing is,
no matter how hard i try,
n how i am dying to make my self adequate,
no, i wont ever ever be good enough to deserve what i think i deserve.
never.

tell me, what am i supposed to do?

am i too small? or did i do something wrong?

maybe the thing is,
no matter how hard i try,
n how i am dying to make my self adequate,
no, i wont ever ever be good enough to deserve what i think i deserve.
never.

tell me, what am i supposed to do?

fit in

every feet has their own shoes to fit. so please, try to stand on my shoes, and walk with them for miles.
then u may judge

fit in

every feet has their own shoes to fit. so please, try to stand on my shoes, and walk with them for miles.
then u may judge

fake smile

God, are You hiding somewhere? Your daughter is lost

fake smile

God, are You hiding somewhere? Your daughter is lost

beer will always do me good

had incredibly great lunch with the girls with garlic bread as our entree and a cheesecake, carrotcake, and mudcake afterwards. also had a beatiful dumpling beside casino in the evening. then finally had a chiller moment at The Beach House in the midnigt, indeed, ended up with jars of beer and wedges. i was deff fattening my self. i feel like walking home.

"People come and go. when they are gone, it means their duties in your life are over. but some of them are still there in your heart no matter how far and how long they've been gone. " - Joan

beer will always do me good

had incredibly great lunch with the girls with garlic bread as our entree and a cheesecake, carrotcake, and mudcake afterwards. also had a beatiful dumpling beside casino in the evening. then finally had a chiller moment at The Beach House in the midnigt, indeed, ended up with jars of beer and wedges. i was deff fattening my self. i feel like walking home.

"People come and go. when they are gone, it means their duties in your life are over. but some of them are still there in your heart no matter how far and how long they've been gone. " - Joan

u can see the fireworks up in the sky, yet not on my face

the nye of mine was a blast one. but still, smthing is missing without having it all around with my parents. seriously, i never know that new year can be this gloomy without them

u can see the fireworks up in the sky, yet not on my face

the nye of mine was a blast one. but still, smthing is missing without having it all around with my parents. seriously, i never know that new year can be this gloomy without them

new year resolution

1. treat people like i want to be treated:
- stop canceling things last minute
- be more sensitive
- try not to please everybody
- respect people more
- stop judging people
- be good to all, cause everybody is unique.
they cant help that they r annoying :p
*common sense, be good to receive better. karma does exist!
2. better GPA.
* please God, i beg u. this is crucial for my next study plan.
3. serve You more,
with a grateful heart, for your glory, not mine :)
4. spread my wings, n stop dishing off opportunities
build connection, get out of my comfort zone, i know i have to!
5. GET A JOB.
- prepare my CV n cover letter, take every volunteer job that has come to my ibox
6. stop bluffing about my future plan
i have learned so much that the more i talk about it, the more impossible for it to come true
7. be more faithful, more understanding so we can make it works boo? :)

frankly, i hate making new year resolution, cause i know it wont work. lol. oh gee, so this wud be one of my resolution, my last resolution is:

8. make all of my resolutions come true

new year resolution

1. treat people like i want to be treated:
- stop canceling things last minute
- be more sensitive
- try not to please everybody
- respect people more
- stop judging people
- be good to all, cause everybody is unique.
they cant help that they r annoying :p
*common sense, be good to receive better. karma does exist!
2. better GPA.
* please God, i beg u. this is crucial for my next study plan.
3. serve You more,
with a grateful heart, for your glory, not mine :)
4. spread my wings, n stop dishing off opportunities
build connection, get out of my comfort zone, i know i have to!
5. GET A JOB.
- prepare my CV n cover letter, take every volunteer job that has come to my ibox
6. stop bluffing about my future plan
i have learned so much that the more i talk about it, the more impossible for it to come true
7. be more faithful, more understanding so we can make it works boo? :)

frankly, i hate making new year resolution, cause i know it wont work. lol. oh gee, so this wud be one of my resolution, my last resolution is:

8. make all of my resolutions come true

case of immortality

source: i can read
via: http://yesnowait.tumblr.com/page/2

case of immortality

source: i can read
via: http://yesnowait.tumblr.com/page/2

gloomy xmas

found this wonderful statement
in my little brother Yeremia Bagas facebook status:
"christmas is nothing like christmas with incomplete family"
AGREE :'(

gloomy xmas

found this wonderful statement
in my little brother Yeremia Bagas facebook status:
"christmas is nothing like christmas with incomplete family"
AGREE :'(

5 minutes looking back

2009 has been an accomplishment year for me. dreams finally come true, doing stuffs all out, n indeed l freaking love what im doing. dancing in what so-called my own lala land, where rainbow is my curtain and music is my daily rice. not too long for me to realise that music, dance, art and surely God, is my aim of life. and it keeps growing. those things, i finally do here, a place where God has put me to learn so damn much.

no longer a night fellas, never got drunk no more. it has been 6 months i reckon, not even step my feet on fortitude valley. more likely a church girl i would say. LOLS. got involved in every occasion that i could think off. i know for some people it is HELL ANNOYING to see me in every painting that painted on the wall. for those who got annoyed, i trully appologize. i just cant help to grab all candies that has come to me.

2010. im done here. somehow i want to get out from my comfort zone. this place has comforted me like literally. i will still be here, for those who's worry (turns out no one will. lol). but it will more like me my self, drop the bow and pass it on to the next rainbow. i wil place my self behind the curtain. it is time for me to spread my wings, get on to the next level. dare my self to take this challenge to go on to the next level.

5 minutes looking back

2009 has been an accomplishment year for me. dreams finally come true, doing stuffs all out, n indeed l freaking love what im doing. dancing in what so-called my own lala land, where rainbow is my curtain and music is my daily rice. not too long for me to realise that music, dance, art and surely God, is my aim of life. and it keeps growing. those things, i finally do here, a place where God has put me to learn so damn much.

no longer a night fellas, never got drunk no more. it has been 6 months i reckon, not even step my feet on fortitude valley. more likely a church girl i would say. LOLS. got involved in every occasion that i could think off. i know for some people it is HELL ANNOYING to see me in every painting that painted on the wall. for those who got annoyed, i trully appologize. i just cant help to grab all candies that has come to me.

2010. im done here. somehow i want to get out from my comfort zone. this place has comforted me like literally. i will still be here, for those who's worry (turns out no one will. lol). but it will more like me my self, drop the bow and pass it on to the next rainbow. i wil place my self behind the curtain. it is time for me to spread my wings, get on to the next level. dare my self to take this challenge to go on to the next level.

i recommend u to read between the line before u judge me

WHO ARE U TO JUDGE ANYWAY???

i recommend u to read between the line before u judge me

WHO ARE U TO JUDGE ANYWAY???

me building a wall. indeed. i run.

Nice decission girl. Live with it. Ur life is here, aint nowhere else not even ur hometown. Ur here now, earning ur life. If u keep looking back, n keep rewinding how happy u r back in ur hometown, just go home n never go back here. U better appreaciate wht u ve got. So this is wht u shud du, do d best for everything here, then God will decide where exactly ur belong to.

“jgn kalah sm keadaan dhis” - ciko

me building a wall. indeed. i run.

Nice decission girl. Live with it. Ur life is here, aint nowhere else not even ur hometown. Ur here now, earning ur life. If u keep looking back, n keep rewinding how happy u r back in ur hometown, just go home n never go back here. U better appreaciate wht u ve got. So this is wht u shud du, do d best for everything here, then God will decide where exactly ur belong to.

“jgn kalah sm keadaan dhis” - ciko

sing my heart out like the whole world is deaf

when the gig comes true

i never know what exactly i want as things are gradually changing. but one thing remains the same, it has always been my pleassure to run all the way the bridge with the guys only to catch up the time for check-sound. Those precious irreplacable moment. cant imagine when each of us start leaving the stage, and yes, its goin to be started, in 2 weeks time.

sing my heart out like the whole world is deaf

when the gig comes true

i never know what exactly i want as things are gradually changing. but one thing remains the same, it has always been my pleassure to run all the way the bridge with the guys only to catch up the time for check-sound. Those precious irreplacable moment. cant imagine when each of us start leaving the stage, and yes, its goin to be started, in 2 weeks time.

the undetectable master

whos tht? rocking on the stage, playing as if the world is gonna end tmrw. smart n attractively desirable. puts all the awesomeness into the fingers. but hey watch out, apparently it seems gonna leave the stage soon

the undetectable master

whos tht? rocking on the stage, playing as if the world is gonna end tmrw. smart n attractively desirable. puts all the awesomeness into the fingers. but hey watch out, apparently it seems gonna leave the stage soon